beckypoos

beckypoos

( 10:03 pm )

My blood is boiling. Goodness knows why.

I'm sick of waiting to heard from those damn schools. Infact I don't think I'm even going to hear anything from them now, its been a few weeks since I wrote. I suppose that half term has only just ended and stuff... but I'm not hopful at all. I'm stressed, I'm bored, and I'm scared. I have no money and the LEA still haven't got back to me about my tuition fees. They said I would receive details in the post this week, and so far I've heard nothing. I wouldn't mind, but being threatened with exclusion isn't what I need right now! I'm going to have to go into uni sometime next week and explain myself to various departments, which is going to be fun.

Tomorrow I'm going to fill up my day with experimenting with curling tongues. Now my hair isn't as long and heavy it might just look ok and hold for longer, but I'm not going to place any bets... or use any damn sprays!

oooh Gav's appeared *grins*

Song of the Day
Artist: XTC
Title: Human alchemy
Album: Mummer
Reason: er... *shrugs*

( 11:35 pm )

0-2

( 7:24 pm )

First of all, congratulations to Wendy and Liam who are engaged :)

My brother put his bed up yesterday and I ended up with his old one. Yes, while I was out all day my mum and dad decided to take my bed away and replace it. Not only did they do that, but they also went through everything under my bed which pisses me off. What made it even worse was when I put my head down to go to sleep I found that a pillow was missing. Apparently because James now has a double bed this means he needs 4 pillows... as fuckin if! I soon sorted it out and got it back off him this afternoon. Bus as a result of the pillow theft I didn't get much shut eye :( I reckon I'll sleep perfectly tonight, I have a nice soft bed that does make my back hurt and three lufly pillows, woohoo!

< / whinge >

Song of the Day
Artist: The Cure
Title: Prayers for Rain
Album: Disintegration
Reason: I love it... you'll love it! Download it now!!

( 1:00 am )

*glares at the screen*

I don't really know what to say... I have to say something because it has been nearly a week sinse I said anything productive on here and I'm always shouting at other people for blog neglect. Ok, I'll start by telling you I have been ill for the past couple of days. I'v had a head cold; head full of snot, runny eyes and achy muscles and bones. I spent a lot of yesturday in bed trying to sleep off the pain... I suppose it worked a bit, but then I had to get up coz Neighbours was about to start. I finished reading al the books I bought. I only got them just over a week ago, three novels and all gone already! They were all pretty good:

Big Fish
This was an interesting read because I had seen the film before hand. It's good in the fact that it stands a long from the film quite well. It was obviously changed to fit the film format, so the book goes in quite a different direction and the film takes away and adds a few bits too. It was good to read it knowing that I didn't know some of the story, I'ts always nice when you dont thow what to expect.

Starter For Ten
I really enjoyed reading this book, deffinitly the best out of the three. The lad in the story and the characters around him were just so ordinary and they spoke the truth about university. I mean they didn't glamourise it or anything... or atleast I didnt think they did any way. I admit that my uni life isnt anything like his, but you could imagin someone's being like it... someone who moved away from home that is. The characters were so well written too, I could picture them in my mind really well and I felt as if I knew who they were. In some books it's easy to get characters mixed up and forget names, but not with this one. Very good.

Incompatence
I only finished this one this morning. I can't make my mind up about it really, it was strange... I did end up enjoying it though. I can't explain this one... you'll just have to read it for yourself :p

Ummm... well to say that I didnt know what I was going to say, I think I managed pretty well :p

I didn't think I would be able to go to the football on Wednesday, but I can now because my Nannan has given me money for the ticket. Woohoo! I wasnt going to let her give me the money, but she's damn stubborn! My brother and his girlfriend are going too, so that will make a change and should be interesting. My brother bought a double bed today, he said that he was sick of waking up between the bed and the wall when Carolyn stayed over. My dad made a point of telling me not to get a boyfriend, because he wouldnt allow me to have a double bed. Apparently 'it's different when it's your daughter'. I couldnt fit a double bed in here anyway, so I guess it's out of the question!

Going for my hair cutting tomorrow. Nothing drastic thought, just a trim. I thought about getting some sort of style. I quite like Jenifer Aniston's new locks in the lastest episodes of Friends... that's the ones I've downloaded that have only been air in america so far :p but I'll never do it. 1. It will never look how it looks on her. 2. I don't have the bottle!

ummm 1am... gotta be up at 9ish :s

Song of the Day
Artist: N/A
Title: Neighbours background music
Album: N/A
Reason: It's in my head... :s

( 1:11 am )

My life has been rated:

See what your rating is!

( 11:17 pm )

I had a nice weekend with Capps, Gav and Jono. They arrived on Friday evening which is when we went for the Chinese in Sheffield. We well and truly stuffed our faces there with sweet and sour stuff and Mr Whippy ice cream :D I got a little angry with a certain Mr Capps while waiting for the tram to come and take us back to Meadowhall. It turns out that he blabbed to Jono about the dreams I've been having about him. Capps was under the impression that I had already told Jono, which is sort of true and sort of not true. I told him about the first one I had when I thought it was just a one off, but I never told him that it became a regular thing. So I was red faced all the way to the pub in Meadowhall, and in great need for some alcohol! We had quite a laugh in the bar, playing kill/shag/marry and talking about embarrassing secrets... I think that probably came about due to my dream revelations! These lasses walked past who were playing Bogies (A game from Dick and Dom in da Bungalow). This is where you walk around a public places shouting 'bogies' as loud as you can. I think Gav's impressive response won the game :D
On Saturday we went to the Sheffield Wednesday match. We won 1-0... we played pretty crap though and only won due to a penalty. That was pretty much the weekend... It could have gone better but I seemed to be in a weird mood and not much got said. I'm sure I bored them all to death, ah well! I'm now extremely skint, I have about £60 to last me two months, which I'm sure is going to be fun! There was talk of another meet up at Gav's, but to be quite honest, after last weekend's spending, I don't think I'm going to be able to make it.

I was asked to go out tonight, to a gig in town with Dave. I had to turn that down because of my money crisis... it's fookin depressing!

I finished reading another novel today, and now have a headache due to all the brain power I used. I'm going to be starting another one tomorrow... well I'v got nothing better to do, have I?

*Skips off to drown in her own self pity*

Song of the Day
Artist: The Cure
Title: Facination Street
Album: Disintigration
Reason: It's one of the best cure songs of all time, eva, eva, eva!

( 3:49 pm )

So uni are threatening to exclude me if I don't pay my fees within the next two weeks. How many times do I need to go and see them? They already know I'm waiting to hear from the LEA because they assessed me wrong in the first place. I'm sick to death of the incompetence of these people!

I do have some good news today though. I will be spending the weekend with Capps, Gav and Jono. Tonight we're going for a Chinese and tomorrow where going to the Wednesday game. It is pretty annoying that only 3/12 people are able to come, but it's way better than no-one at all :D *shoots everyone else with water pistols*

Gotta tidy up a bit still....eesh, the things I do!

Song of the Day
Artist: Gene
Title: You'll Never Walk Again
Album: Revelations
Reason: It's playing

( 12:25 am )

I plan to fill in a few gaps :)
anyone fancy joining me?

create your own visited country map
or write about it on the open travel guide

( 2:59 pm )

Thanks for this game Gem, it was quite fun and also quite annoying... I have been to places and not known where they are... but I think I have most of them down. although theres are probably a few places that I have been to and not remembered due to being too young.
So here ya are... click the link NOW to have a go :D

I've visited the counties in yellow.
Which counties have you visited?

made by marnanel
map reproduced from Ordnance Survey map data
by permission of the Ordnance Survey.
© Crown copyright 2001.

( 1:18 pm )

I have finally posted my placement application letters this morning. The amount of times I had to re-print the damn things because I missed bits and forgot to change words and addresses went beyond funny! Now all I have to do thought is wait for replies... that is if any of them actually want to employ me. The tricky thing about it is that I am not actually applying for an existing job, I have just wrote to schools hoping that they have something for me to do computer wise... anything will do :(

Well that whole thing has got me nervous and uptight, so I have started painting things again. I'm only good at flowers at the moment, so I am practicing more and more with them. I find the bigger the flower the more detail needed, so I have done lilies and giant bluebells. I still have to finish the lilies off though. Its quite fun :D I want to paint a person but I need a photo that's good enough. It needs to be clear and not too dark or too bright.

Song of the Day
Artist: N/A
Title: N/A
Album: N/A
Reason: N/A

( 4:05 pm )

THE DRUNK - SOBER TRANSLATION SERVICE

Bloody entertaining night! Although I was the entertainment, hahahah.... i kept saying dirty things didn't I? Didn't mean to, honest! I just slipped up and then people laffed. EVIL PPL!
Now one of those evil people has gone to bed and I'm left thinging poo! He txt me and said he was worried coz I wasn't online, but I was watching telly, so I came online and he wasn't here and he wasn't paying attention to his phone. Can't have been that worried then, eh?

good nite evil and lufly ppl

...and happy birthday Dave :)

( 1:24 am )

Bloody entertainin night! Altho I was the entertain,mnt, hahah ah.... i kept sayin dirty things didnt i> disnt mean yopt, honest! I just slipped up and then pl laffed. EVIL PPL!
now one of thos evil pl have gone to bed and Im left thingk poo! he txt me and said he was worried coz i wasnt online, but i was watcuin telly, so icame online and he wasnt here and he wasnt payin attention to his phone. cant have been that orres then, eh?

good nite evil and lufly ppl

Song of the Day
Artist: Beck
Title: Hotwax
Album: Odelay
Reason: Yo soy un disco quebrado, Yo tengo chicle en el cerebro

( 11:36 am )

Dreams... Mean owt or mean nowt?

Well last night I had a rather unusual, pointless dream. I was on the football field thing in Thorpe Hesley and I noticed a big red and white (UGH!!) sign that said 'discovered by Capps and Jono'. According to local villagers these too young lads did a science experiment here when they were at school and they discovered some new stuff in the ground. Obviously I can't tell you what because its my dream, generated by my brain, and I'm just not very scientific! So why the bloody hell would Capps and Jono be doing experiments for school hours away from where they bloody live? And why Jono and Capps in the first place?

Well I thought about it deeper and I figured that really it should be Gav's name on that board. He's the one who is into science, he's the one doing sciency things at university. That made me think about the Jono dreams. It's Gav who I like, so really I should be dreaming of Gav there too. So is my brain doing it on purpose to try and stop me thinking of him and trying to push me on...? Or do I really think Jono is sexy and he and Capps have more scientific ability? Maybe I'm just looking into dreams too much, but it's worth thinking about. I'll let you know of any other Gav like roll swapping in my mind.

< / ramble >

( 1:11 pm )

Well Big Fish is a really good film and I recommend it to you all! I think I recommend Lost In Translation a bit more though.... but I suppose there both different styles so its hard to tell.

Yesterday just zoomed by for me, I had quite a nice time... and I got vodka bought me! Altho I will pay you back, Dave *makes a note of it* :D

I have a 'definitely coming to chinky' message from four people now. So I'm waiting to hear back from one person and I still need to ask two people. If everyone can come it will be a interesting night, I rekon. Non-stop food and mmmm booze :D
They'll be new people for everyone to meet... ummm I do hope people get on :s

in store for today I have nothing at all to do. Well except undo all my application letters and change 'yours sincerely' to 'yours faithfully' where applicable. I'm such a bloody dumb ass!! How will I ever get a job in a primary school if I can't even remember the basics of letter writing. One things for sure, after this balls up I'm not likely to forget in a hurry!

Song of the Day
Artist: P J Harvey
Title: Ecstacy
Album: Rid of Me
Reason: ooooh the guitar *shivers*

( 12:33 pm )

I'm going to see Big Fish today, woohoo!!

It's directed by the bloke who directed my all time fave film (Tim Burton - Beetlejuice), so it should be right up my street! I'm going with Dave (Vindi)... I must be mad, ey? ;)

So far my morning has been a bit of a bugger. I woke up at 11, when I wanted to be up at about 10, There was no hot water when I wanted a bath and I'm full of gunky stuff! *sniffs*

I'm hungry and I just told me dad no when he asked if I wanted a sandwich making. I'm so damn fussy... I don't like other people making my sarnies coz I know how I like them, and no one does them how I like them!

Song of the Day
Artist: The Breeders
Title: Doe
Album: Pod
Reason: I woke up with it in my head, hehe

( 1:17 am )

Going out tomorrow.... secret location.... secret people. It's all very secret really :D
Costs money tho! [-(

( 11:05 pm )

Lots of people say that money isn't everything and the best things are free. Bollocks to that! Ok, friends are free.... or at least they appear to be. You have to meet them... most of my current friends are via the internet, you have to pay for the internet. Then you have to pay to meet up with them and there's birthdays and Christmas and blurgh.

As you can probably tell, I'm sick of being so far away from mates (£30 away). I try my best to arrange things and invite them here, but its so hard to get everyone's attention and get everyone here all at the same time. For this Chinesee thing I'm organising I invited 7 people and only 3 can make it.... "why oh why, emily" i hear you cry.....MONEY!!!

Well I'm off out on Monday if all goes to plan. I'll meet some new people. People who are close by, in fact (just 255p away :p). That will hopfully cheer me up a bit... that's if I fit in and don't feel like a tag along prat! Of course with this we go back to the money issues... and we can also add on some other things like travel and stressing nonsense like that..... and people wonder why I dont get out much :p

*slurps her soup*

Went to Meadowhell and Sheffield today. I bought my mum her birthday present (£12), Some burny insense shit for my brother and his girlfiend(£2), 2 bras for me(£24), and some CD-Rs for mi dad(£5). And I also got some back ache for myself... which is nice!

Song of the Day
Artist: XTC
Title: Love On A Farmboy's Wages
Album: Mummer
Reason: Kinda fits, dont ya think?

( 2:16 am )

I have a new viewer. *waves ello*
His linkages are now in the lists to you right, for those of you who are interested... *wont hold her breath*

( 6:52 pm )

The film was very good and the company wasn't too bad either.

It was great to catch up with Beki after so long. We had a bit of a giggle sharing stories from the past 9 months and remembering good times at college. She had one quite shocking thing to tell me actually. She's engaged, and she's asked me to be bridesmaid. eeeeek! She's younger than me and I feel too young to be thinking about weddings! He is nice though, from what I have seen of him... either he's shy and quiet or i scare him :p
I am happy for her... she seems really happy and I have said yes to being her bridesmaid, on the condition that I don't have to ware something big, pink and frilly! There moving in together within the next couple of weeks, too. ouchee!
She seems to think I'm dead lucky to have so many males friends and she is under the impression that I could take my pick of any of them anytime I wanted. She couldn't be more wrong!
1. I'm not a whore
2. None of them are the slightest bit interested!

Song of the Day
Artist: Muse
Title: Hate This and I'll Love You
Album: Showbiz
Reason: It's nice, depressing, and angry.... just like me! :D

( 12:39 am )

This is an update!

I feel rather dizzy after today. I started at home (If I didn't I'd be worried), then I was at uni, then I went into Sheffield's centre, then back to uni, then to Herries Road (to the optition), then to Hillsborough, then back to sheffield, then Meadowhall and home. PHEW. i felt tired just typin that! I spent about a tenner on buses and trams an all!

I'm off to the cinema tomorrow with Beki, who I haven't spoken to properly for about 9 months. That was when I was introducing her to Mark and Capps... doesn't seem that long ago! We're going to see Lost In Translation. It's had a pretty good write up and won a few awards so I quite looking forward to it. I hoped that Beki and me would be able to go for dinner afterwards and catch up properly, but her and her boyfriend have a date with their landlord, so pfft to them!

Well the meet date has been set and so far 3 people have said yes, and 2 have said no. 14th... Valentines day. We're gonna end up being surrounded by soppy couples. Oh well, I'll try not to let going out for a meal with a bunch of lads on valuations day upset me too much ;)

Current number of dreams (nudge) since September = 6 (Yes, another one!)

Song of the Day
Artist: Muse
Title: Forced In
Album: Hullabaloo
Reason: It's quite chilled out, and I'm in a tired, lazy, chilled mood